date:Sunday, 7 March 2010
time:04:41
title:Time to change to a better Bryan.
Hmm readers, just came back from camp tough.
Well, i have really many many things to say and some things to dictact.
And i really hope you guys cud actually really just read everything i posted here.
Cos, it wud really mean
ALOT to me.
As you knw, i this person, always very naughty one.
That's why we were chosen to go for this camp.
Mdm Tay gave us a briefing on this but we were like just taking it like a piece of crap.
Total CRAP.
Now, i really know why she said we had hope of becoming a better person.
After this camp, i really want to try to change to a better person and not to revert to my old ways. During Day 2 of th camp, parents came down to see our speech.
I was really nervous cos' ... let me just tell u how my family is like.. I'm gonna be frank with u cos' since im gna change alr, no point keeping my old ways and stupid habits with me right.
My parents spoilt me since i was young. So, u can say im a spoilt brat. Yah, I AM.
Whatever i want, i get it.
But nw i realised it really isnt good for me. The instructors a.k.a PTI's kept reminding us that our current attitude that we have isnt gonna bring us anywhere further. Then, during the parents night, i was very nervous. Not only me, ALL of us were shaking. Literally SHAKING.
I was the 8th to go in to share our speech. In front of us, a whole 54 lot of people, made up of parents, children, and teachers, and ofc Mdm Tay. When i was sharing, my mind went blank.
TOTAL BLANK. Then i rmb-ed wad th Camp Chief's instructions were to us.
1st->Introduce yourself
2nd->Name, Class,Schl, No.
3rd->Call ur parents up front.
4th->Read to them the letter you have made for them.
5th->Give them the letter.
6-> Bow.
And i did all of this. But when we sat down, it was a whole diff. story. PTI said no sitting on hands behind on the floor. And no leaning. We did both. Then aft tht when the presentation was over, we had some time with our parents. So we brought them around the camp, to where we sleep to where we gathered every morning.
When we having CT with our parents, we had to talk to the BGSS teachers. And when the parents were talking to our parents, we were supposed to sit tgt wif thm. But many of us didnt, including me. I'm sorry about tht. Okay, so when we had to fall in, we took our own sweet time and delayed the rest. So, ofc the PTI shouted at us. Oh yes, forgotten to tell you guys, the whole camp was all about shouting, push-ups, and
TOUGH activites. In case you didnt know, everytime we scratched our face, moved a single inch, hands not behind our backs, talk.. basically do anything without permission, we had to do one whole set of PT. One set of PT consists of 5 push up, 5 leg raise(HARDEST), lunch position, squat positon 5x, and jumping jacks.
If we didnt do the last jumping jacks landing on the same pace, we had to do two more sets of PT. Which oso means 3 more times. First day we did 4 time, which mean 8 times. 8x5=40 altogether. Seriously, beginning of the camp, when alighting the bus, the PTI's started to shout at us alrdy. SHOUT HERE SHOUT THERE. It was damn damn damn noisy. But once used, its like normal talking. Eveytime we were given instructions, we had to say either "Yes, Sir / Yes,Ma'am."We had to say it louder than all the PTI's. We were really pissed off.
Alright, ofc , as you know , this batch who went was so-called as the "naughty-ones" so there were quite a number of times some of them talked back to the PTIs and ytd, when we having the morning run, Adam and Brandon fell out and fought. ITE, it took 4 PTIs to break thm up.
In this camp, i really learnt to be firstly, respectful to parents, teachers, and friends. The most important thing is to respect yourself. During the camp, it was repeated many times and i still cudnt catch it. Until the end of the camp when we were waiting for the chief to call out our numbers.. In the camp, we were known only as numbers, not by name. I was the 2nd last one to receive my outcome. My outcome= Staying back for terror camp. From the name of the camp, i assume u knw why is it called that. Its worse than the Camp TOUGH by many many times. Cant imagine that. When sir allowed us to go to the canteen to fall in, we were waiting for the other batch, the ones tht were alrdy on their way home on the bus. Amazingly, the chief had a real good heart to allow some of us to be dismiss back home. Before i carry on, let me tell you why he did that. When as we were waiting, Sir asked us to do a simple activity, to put our left hand on our eyes and use our right and to point to who we think is the most deserving person to be left back in the camp and proceed to camp terror, all of us pointed at somebody else. Only ONE, it was brandon, he pointed at himself. Sir was looking for tht type of person. So ofc brandon had a place to be dismiss but to be fair, we oso were given another chance to convince Mr Teo, Mr Sari and Mr Hafiz that we cud be dismissed. I was really scared that i cud not go home cos' bliv it or not, i WILL miss home if more than 3 days. So, i told Mr Teo that i'll change my attitude, behaviour, no loitering, no talking back, no fighting, no bullying, no vulgarities, no arguing and to obey ALL schl rules. If not, sad to say, Public Caning. Gave me a fright, public caning's not gna be nice. Now, at this point of time, i still have many things i regret doing. One thing you guys don't know is that during the parent's night, many MANY of our parents cried when we gave our reflections. And out of so many of us, only three cried, the students. I did not cry then, right on the spot when i hugged my mum and dad. But onli aft going to sleep when the thought of my mum crying jst bcos of me being so FUCKING selfish and jst thinking that the world revolves around me, i jst lost senses and let out my tears. I don't think anyone saw it anw, so at least people won't say im attracting attention. Now, at this point of time, i know there are some of you reading this post will think that im jst writing to pity of whatever crapp. I don't give a damn and it's up to me to change, not u. So, if you wna think tht way, i got no objections. Your brain, your thinking.
Bt to show that i really mean it, i'm going to say everything i rmb i did wrong to some of my friends. Whether its about friendship, relationship or anyth. Whatever comes into my mind, i'll just post it.
1st. Recently, Gui Jin. Im sorry for strangling you and not getting my facts right. Now, I jst hope you'll forgive me and just be friends with me.
2. Fiona, sorry for scolding you when you were telling me off, i know my mistake/s-. Sorry.
3. Mr teo, sorry for scolding vulgarities at you when you were just concerned about my studies and progress.
4. Ms Chong. Ms Chong, thnk you for bearing with us for our bits and pieces of bullshit we said to you. Whether it was vulgarities, or anyth offensive, i sincerely hope you'll forgive us.
5. Amos. Firstly, thnk you for staying by me when im in anyth, trouble or fights or detentions.
Im sorry for distrbing you last few days befre my camp. Forgiveness appreciated.-
6. Mingyan. Sorry for calling him tht day, although i dont really knw why u were angry bt i hope you'll be forgiving. Sorrys.
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Now, i hope all of u to be witess of my promise towards myself and my parents.
Mum, i know this few years i've been giving you lots of phone calls and lots of complains from teachers. I know its hard for you to accept me having piercings and the attitude i've been giving you. Not once, not twice, but many times. Therefore, i want to make a change to this. Im going to change to a better and more serious person. Studies come first, everything else, comes last. I promis iwill come home aft schl whn no CCAs or remedials. I promise i will not loiter
ANYMORE. I'll be a good boy and be a good son to both you and daddy. Sorry for everything that i've caused grievance and sadness to you. SORRY.
Camp tough was really a good experience and im sure i can change for the better as long as i have the will. Wish me luck (:
-Bryan
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